<body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar.g?targetBlogID\x3d15931306\x26blogName\x3dStraight+Talking\x26publishMode\x3dPUBLISH_MODE_BLOGSPOT\x26navbarType\x3dBLACK\x26layoutType\x3dCLASSIC\x26searchRoot\x3dhttps://straighttalking05.blogspot.com/search\x26blogLocale\x3den_US\x26v\x3d2\x26homepageUrl\x3dhttp://straighttalking05.blogspot.com/\x26vt\x3d6804584208535720604', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>
Straight Talking
About Me


Name::straighttalker05
From::Northern Ireland, United Kingdom
I'm an avid dreamer. I have big ideas, and I'll probably take them somewhere. Watch this space. I want to present what I think - and not with words minced up into an acceptable platter. Some things need to be told straight - particularly gay rights. Particularly life in the closet, it's very nature means no one hears it. If they do it's usually tinted with nostalgia. I'm confident, I know what I like and what I don't. Please don't confuse this for arrogance. I'm probably more insecure then you imagine.
View my complete profile


Straight Talker is a poor student now.

Buy her a drink for 2 quid!

Recent Posts

DVD Double Standards
Mid Week Drinking
The Consequences of Drinking
Birds Punish Gays
Little Bootees and Baby Photos
Dublin, Belfast… (but not New York)
1800s
Little Britain, Big Issues?
Computer Control
Toilet Windows

Archives

August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007

Post Script

blog search directory British Blog Directory. SpectrumBloggers.com Northern Irish Blog Directory. Web Blog Pinging Service Irish Queer Blogs Blog Flux Directory

Linkage

« * Bloggers With Boobies * »

Who links to me?

Locations of visitors to this page

      
Marriage is love.

Sunday, April 02, 2006

A Beautiful Contradiction (if I do say so myself...)


My life is one of contrasts; everything is on one side of a sliding spectrum. I’m good and I’m bad. I’m a social butterfly and I’m lonely. I’m cool and I’m a geek. I’m gay and I’m straight.

I don’t really have a problem with being the contradiction I am. I like to be varied, but I hate to lie. Sometimes I do get upset when I run things too closely. After my first Pride I had to go away on holiday with my parents where I had to pretend to be straight when I was secretly bursting to show my new found pride.

Yesterday I spent the morning among close friends who know I’m gay. I was quite open, and it was, as always a pleasure to spend time with them. Being ‘let out’ is so important to me, sometimes I’m just screaming to spend some time when I don’t feel I’m pretending.

After this I went to a friend’s 18th birthday, held in her evangelical church. There was for a start no drink, no lesbians and while they did play some of The Village People, I just couldn’t get into it in that setting.

Maybe it just wasn’t my night. Or maybe it was too much of a low after my day. I hated every moment of it because I knew every person there would condemn me. Everyone there was narrow-minded. Everyone there could only connect with me on the most superficial of levels.

And no one there even guessed it.

---------------------------------------------

1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hmmmm I think you needed more than a complete opposite on saturday night

Sun Apr 02, 10:28:00 PM  

Post a Comment

<< Home